Me, Myself and I...

I now understand why I haven't been blogging as much for a long time. It's not because I'm too lazy to write, or have nothing to write. I had and have a lot to write about, it's just that I have been busy sorting things out. I was lost, disappointed and most importantly hurt.

Returning to Bahrain this Easter was definitely a good idea. It helped me clear my mind. I needed that holiday more than ever. I needed to speak to people I trust. People who listen not judge, real ones not plastics.

Doing my own thing with the family and spending so much time catching up and talking to my best friends about all the disappointing events that happened eversince November was really good. I learnt my lesson. I should never trust people just because they're nice to me! To sum this up, I realised that "ان لم تكن ذئباً أكلتك الذئاب" is very true. I'm proud of myself more than ever and can now declare myself a tough cookie and all you losers can dig a hole and ***** yourself. haha

I have one month left in London & then i'll be done with uni. This academic year was the worst in my entire life, but i'm proud that I made it till the end. This makes me a strong person.

TaTa!

PS - i (L) you freak. I need time to freeze..

Nitfo's Back.

Dear Bloggers...

I haven't been motivated to write recently due to the fact that I was sorting some terrible things out. Being backstabbed by an ex-close friend is not easy but thankfully, I learnt a lesson from that slap. Life goes on after all, and like Hamid Zaid said "il9a7ib eli ma ksabt m7abetah ma t5srah" ;) Another reason is my never-ending courseworks and my final project.

G- Girl i MISS yew ;* ! I will dedicate the post after this for the tag thingie ;)

Thanks for all those who wondered where i was ;D

Take Care,
SuperDuperNitfah

You name it.

I have nothing to say except that i'm in deep shit, and i mean it. Deep SHIT. It's not even my fault.
Thought i'd record that, just in case I do something stupid if I did not find a way out of this.....

Mean World...

I believe writing is the best way to release stress/anger...You don't take it out on people, instead, you just write the thoughts on your mind..

Sadly, I realised that even though you are always there for your friends and loved ones whenever they need a shoulder to cry on, and even though you listen to them when they needed to talk, it doesn't mean they would do the same thing to you.

Things on my mind

- Why do people find it strange or stupid that I miss my mum and sometimes get homesick, even though its my fifth year abroad? It's either they never experienced this feeling or that I'm abnormal...

- The fact that I still can't cook does NOT make me a loser. I will learn when I want to, when I know that no-one is going to make fun of me because my food isn't super yummy.

- People aren't born perfect. They learn something new everyday.

- Quite alot of people don't understand the meaning of being there for someone..

- A lot of people think being there for someone doesn't include being physically available too. A conversation on MSN, AOL or over any other chat bot will never be as good as when you meet up with your friends and talk to them about how you feel or what worries you. The least thing they can do is hug you :(

PS. Dr.Wells - No-one will ever replace you. You're probably the only one that answers my call even if it was 5am, will listen to me, and won't make me feel like a complete idiot. For that, I love you so much.

Oh yeah, Happy Birthday Mimi, I know you've just turned 7, but maybe you'll see this one day when you learn to blog lol =) And cousins + lil sis, theres no barnamaj without you guys ;) Can't wait to see you all here in Summer !!!

Achievement...

I can't believe my eyes. I've just finished writing my stupid 2000-word assignment on "Strategic Management" that is due at 4.30pm today. I'm so proud of myself, been working my ass off continuously since Tuesday. 3 hours of sleep with nightmares of my stupid teacher screaming at me for not attending his boring tutorials, countless mugs of my tea with milk <3, KrispyKremes, Walkers, 816,927 hours of talking to Reem shai5at il7areem to make sure i don't fall asleep...

The thing is, I don't understand why I've been clueless for the past month. I seriously did not have any idea whatsoever on how to answer that assignment, and last night, the assignment question was kind of clearer to me and the ideas started flowing just because the deadline was in less than 24 hours, so i kept writing and writing till i realised it was 7am and I was done. I reached the word limit. I explained all my points. Perfect! Although I'm exhausted, I still want to help Fred with his HRM assignment. Bloody uni... Almost everyone i know is stressed out and suffering from a messed up biological clock and a sleeping-disorder.

Thought I'd have to congratulate Noor, my little sister (who happens to be taller than me), and record this in her educational history. Nini, I'm so proud of you.. Your report card is fantastic this time. Straight A's in Maths and Chemistry has been mama's dream for the past (few months/year?). HAHA! Keep it up, you lazy smart kid lol! Basich mn the OC ow One-Tree-Hill thing!

Another thing, I don't understand why many people are disappointing me these days.. Not that my expectations are high, I'm realistic. It bothers me so much that I still find it hard to tell people that I'm disappointed or angry at them. I can only tell few ppl, with others i just go quiet. The fact that I don't speak up and tell them in the face doesn't give them the right to disappoint me again. Whatever now...I'm too exhausted to even think about this. I need to rest and sleep for at least 12 hours. I really miss my bedroom in Bahrain 7adha malat rgaad =D

I'm off. Have a good day!