Suddenly I seeee (8)...

I probably had the worst week in my entire life (week isn't over yet haha). Exam, Coursework DEADLINES, stress from university and many other sad events.

R & W - Thank you so much for your support these days. I'm speechless. Ramadhan '07 will have many surprises i believe ;)

Maryam G - No matter what, i luv you. You're always the one to help when there's no-one to guide me in uni. I can't imagine I actually met the DSE deadline. I wouldnt've done it alone. Countdown started ;) Semester one is almost overrrrrr!

Anyway, everything is very very complicated right now, but i know it changed alot in me (i hope). I'm lost.. I don't know who to listen to, who to believe or what to believe. The only thing I know is who to talk to. I'm such a brainless person afterall. Life is freaky.

TaTa.

*Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall in the background*

Another December birthday...

Happy 17th Birthday Dana K :* Mabega shai o teftakain mn sumthing called IB nightmares ;)
Coming up..
Alyaa K turning 15
Darah K turning 15 too
Mimi turned 6 already =)

cousinaaty killekum fe december :P

update.

I am NOT going to do anything stupid. Two phonecalls made me realise I should stay strong and focused in order to get out of this shit. I love you both.

You name it.

I have nothing to say except that i'm in deep shit, and i mean it. Deep SHIT. It's not even my fault.
Thought i'd record that, just in case I do something stupid if I did not find a way out of this.....

iPod Issues?

2 days ago I got this iPod Nano (after a year of being iPod-less) and was so excited. Came home, downloaded i-Fu**ing'-Tunes 7.0.16 or something. And right when I installed it, it kept sending a prompt message indicating that theres a problem with permissions in the registry. I spent good 4 hours trying to just install iTunes :s. Turns out this version is buggy and so many people are experiencing problems/bugs with it. It is common to get a message just like the screen shot below:

Anyway but then I found out this "too technical too risky" solution that sorts the problem out. Whoever finds a difficulty with iTunes, let me know and i'll sort it out hopefully :) :)

Now good nite! Can't open my eyes...

Stewie Annoys Lois

You MUST see this! HAHAHAHA!!!!

Mean World...

I believe writing is the best way to release stress/anger...You don't take it out on people, instead, you just write the thoughts on your mind..

Sadly, I realised that even though you are always there for your friends and loved ones whenever they need a shoulder to cry on, and even though you listen to them when they needed to talk, it doesn't mean they would do the same thing to you.

Things on my mind

- Why do people find it strange or stupid that I miss my mum and sometimes get homesick, even though its my fifth year abroad? It's either they never experienced this feeling or that I'm abnormal...

- The fact that I still can't cook does NOT make me a loser. I will learn when I want to, when I know that no-one is going to make fun of me because my food isn't super yummy.

- People aren't born perfect. They learn something new everyday.

- Quite alot of people don't understand the meaning of being there for someone..

- A lot of people think being there for someone doesn't include being physically available too. A conversation on MSN, AOL or over any other chat bot will never be as good as when you meet up with your friends and talk to them about how you feel or what worries you. The least thing they can do is hug you :(

PS. Dr.Wells - No-one will ever replace you. You're probably the only one that answers my call even if it was 5am, will listen to me, and won't make me feel like a complete idiot. For that, I love you so much.

Oh yeah, Happy Birthday Mimi, I know you've just turned 7, but maybe you'll see this one day when you learn to blog lol =) And cousins + lil sis, theres no barnamaj without you guys ;) Can't wait to see you all here in Summer !!!

Free Hugs Campaign. Inspiring Story! (music by sick puppies)

Check this out. It's awesome :)!

Achievement...

I can't believe my eyes. I've just finished writing my stupid 2000-word assignment on "Strategic Management" that is due at 4.30pm today. I'm so proud of myself, been working my ass off continuously since Tuesday. 3 hours of sleep with nightmares of my stupid teacher screaming at me for not attending his boring tutorials, countless mugs of my tea with milk <3, KrispyKremes, Walkers, 816,927 hours of talking to Reem shai5at il7areem to make sure i don't fall asleep...

The thing is, I don't understand why I've been clueless for the past month. I seriously did not have any idea whatsoever on how to answer that assignment, and last night, the assignment question was kind of clearer to me and the ideas started flowing just because the deadline was in less than 24 hours, so i kept writing and writing till i realised it was 7am and I was done. I reached the word limit. I explained all my points. Perfect! Although I'm exhausted, I still want to help Fred with his HRM assignment. Bloody uni... Almost everyone i know is stressed out and suffering from a messed up biological clock and a sleeping-disorder.

Thought I'd have to congratulate Noor, my little sister (who happens to be taller than me), and record this in her educational history. Nini, I'm so proud of you.. Your report card is fantastic this time. Straight A's in Maths and Chemistry has been mama's dream for the past (few months/year?). HAHA! Keep it up, you lazy smart kid lol! Basich mn the OC ow One-Tree-Hill thing!

Another thing, I don't understand why many people are disappointing me these days.. Not that my expectations are high, I'm realistic. It bothers me so much that I still find it hard to tell people that I'm disappointed or angry at them. I can only tell few ppl, with others i just go quiet. The fact that I don't speak up and tell them in the face doesn't give them the right to disappoint me again. Whatever now...I'm too exhausted to even think about this. I need to rest and sleep for at least 12 hours. I really miss my bedroom in Bahrain 7adha malat rgaad =D

I'm off. Have a good day!

Going insane - educational reasons..

All these are due within the next two weeks or so, which explains
why i'm losing my mind. lol

Management Strategies for IT:

• 2000 words assignment due on the 24th of November.
• Finish off my logbook.

Information Management:

• Last test next Thursday, November 30.
• "Go Organic" casestudy to be submitted on Friday, December 6.

Distributed Systems for eCommerce:

• Done with test three today.
• Assignment due on the 12th of December.
• Logbook done.

Final Year Project:

• Progress Report to be submitted to Mike Scott sometime in December.
• Logbook to be submitted too.

Can't say anything except that Final year rocks! I want a first *tears*

Brothers and Relationships

I've been thinking about brothers and relationships for a while. I'm wondering if brothers do really accept the fact that their sister has a boyfriend...Do they take it the way we (girls) react when we find out that our brother has a girlfriend? I realized that most brothers “say” they’re totally fine with it, when it’s the total opposite. The question is, WHY do they pretend to be cool with it while they KNOW they’re not. Why can’t they just admit that they don’t like the idea and don’t respect it at all?

Group 1
“Retarded sexist bro” - Brother makes it clear he doesn’t want his sister to have a boyfriend. If he finds out she has one, he almost opens fire on her. He believes he has the right to have a girlfriend. Sister doesn’t have the right to love.

Group 2
“Cool-bro Wannabe” - Brother who pretends he doesn’t accept the fact that his sister has someone. If he finds out she has one, the reaction would be worse than Group 1.

Group 3
"Cool brothers" - Ones who know how to respect their sisters choices and decisions she makes in her life.

I believe most of the men in Bahrain and the GCC in general either belong to Group 1 and 2.. Lucky are the ones who have understanding brothers.

What type of brother do you bloggers have?

PS: I’m not talking about relationships when girls are teenagers, I mean when they’re grown up in their twenties and having a proper relationship.

Trying is always good!

While reading the blogs and moving from a blog to another looking for interesting things to read, I came across a blog that grabbed my attention. I found it amazing or at least, gave me the impression that the blogger is someone without "dead" brain cells. To be precise, the post that I loved was about her experience with job hunting in Kuwait and how much she suffered. So I emailed her, telling her I really liked her blog and that I wanted to add her to my BlogRoll..She replied back and told me to add her to her msn.

Anyways, in that particular post, she was talking about how hard it is to find a job in Kuwait, although she's a fresh Kuwaiti graduate. She also talked about how non-hijabis are not accepted in Islamic banks and other stuff as well. It reminded me in summer 2005 when I applied for an internship in Kuwait Finance House in Bahrain. I was rejected because I wasn't covering my hair with a scarf. How sick does that sound? They said they would've taken me if I was mit7ajbah... I'm not against the 7ijab idea or anything.. sooner or later, i will wear it just like any other girl, but its totally my decision when to wear it.

It also reminded me in how much female Chemical Engineering graduates suffer in Bahrain. They never get jobs in their field because they're women even if they don't mind working in a rough environment. It's as simple as that.

Another point in how fucked up the GCC society is when it comes to mixing culture with Islam. Quite alot of people in Bahrain do that and its getting disgusting. Bahraini bloggers, please don't deny that ALOT of people do that. Thank god my family aren't people with dead brain cells, but yeah, many are. For example, you see a father drinking and pimping and when he goes home, he forces his daughter/wife to wear Hijab and all.. What's his excuse? "Islam says women have to cover their hair with a scarf at the age of 9." He might be right but he's not even religious enough to use such excuses. Was drinking ever halal in Islam?

Things like that make people so retarded. I hope our society changes one day, if not for us, for the next generations...

No3ik, you go girl ;) !

Plans of the week

Plans for this week:

- Re-adjust my f**ked up biological clock.
- Study for the Information Management test on Thursday.
- Try not to miss any classes (sadly, in my dreams).
- Help Fred & Looney(?) with the flat hunting thing. I love this process.
- Print some photographs of my family. I miss them badly
- Stop drinking coke and replace it with water. I think i'm the only person on earth who hates water. This is BAD.
- Accept the fact that i'm allergic to 9an6ara :( I love it.
- Hate BT for the rest of my life :) - not counted as a plan though...

I'm too lazy to use my brain now. It's 5am.
Might update later on.
-Yussie v12

Woohoo! Weekend

This was one hell of a week! Hectic and Eventful. Had flu since Sunday and still didn't recover completely *cough*, two exams, and of course finished off my logbook for the MSIT class or else Mr.Desta would hang me instead of hanging Saddam Hussain.
Here comes the weekend, therefore, I will reward myself and go shopping sometime tomorrow or the day after. I need some red high heels like the ones in "The Devil Wears Prada"!!
Souska - I forgot my Smashing Pumpkins CD in Bahrain. Will get one from Virgin Stores 2mrw!

I love my pink flowers <3 Need to get some flower food so they stay alive for a long time =) cute stuff, v12 ;)
Will watch Mr.Bean's 7alqa now and sleep.
Good Night!

Go Shorty! It's your birthday (8)...

I finally turned 21 !!!! I just got back from my lil bday dinner...
I'll keep this short and simple as i'm too happy to put it in words..
Thank you sooo much for everything you've done, v12 and Qalaqimicious.. I can't live without you two. <3 u loads! And thanx to all those who called or texted =)

There's only so much you can learn in one place
The more that I wait, the more time that I waste
I havn't got much time to waste
It's time to make my way
I'm not afraid of what I'll face
But I'm afraid to stay
I'm going down my road and I can make it alone
I'll work and I'll fight till I find a place of my own
[Chorus]
Are you ready to jump?
Get ready to jump
Don't ever look back oh baby
Yes, I'm ready to jump
Just take my hand
Get ready to jump!

Jump - Madonna .. in the background(8)

I wonder what the future holds =)

Peace y'all
SuperNitfah V¹²

الحكو مـــات - AlSharqiya TV

Check this out http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-4087511363607244822&pr=goog-sl

Turning 21 this Thursday :)

Yippeeee! I'm turning twenty-one on the 9th of November. I now have the right to VOTE! Feels good :) :) www.vote4bahrain.com check this out.

For some reason, I downloaded "Get the party started - Pink". Reminds me in the Dusty Dayyyyyys..... "Ayaam el tanjarah"

Those who are 21 or over.. How did it feel like when you turned twenty-one?
By the way, I think someone killed the lady in flat 5. I don't hear anything mn her flat and no-one visits her at all. She might be away on holiday or something? Although I hate her, I hope she's not dead :(

Mahmood AlYousif - Congratulations! They finally unblocked your blog. I'm so happy :)

Lulu - Sleeping pills might work this time. Although i'm against using sleeping pills, i think i'm better off getting them. I know mama is going to kill me if she finds out lol =)

Will try to sleep now.
Nightie Night everyone

My Theme :)

Your Theme Song is Back in Black by AC/DC

"Back in black, I hit the sack, I've been too long, I'm glad to be back" Things sometimes get really crazy for you, and sometimes you have to get away from all the chaos. But each time you stage your comeback, it's even better than the last!

What's Your Theme Song?

Dancing with the Bees at 4am

I fell asleep at 3.30am and woke up at 4 3ala 9ot buzzzes. Turns out its a huge bee near the lamp :- I'm angry and dead scared *vapor out of my ears*

After 20 minutes of chasing that bitch, I found her in a comma on the floor near the sockets -btw i think she suffocated- so I put on my converse shoes and stepped on her.

All I did is follow Lulu's rules in killing bees. "Yusra, sawee bu5oor, 9eki el lait, ba6li el dereesha!!" It's impossible Lol-Wa.. I can't sleep in the dark, or open the window becuz a5af i end up with 5aleeyat na7al in my room *tears* bas I did some bu5oor.

This is really weird. I don't usually leave the windows open ella shwai for ventilation.. and I was in a deep sleep, windows closed o kilshay.. and i wake up 3ala 9ot hal neqa6 neqa6 scaring me.

How can they possibly get into my room? Any ideas?

btw, I feel like having M&S Salmon and Cream Cheese Sandwich right now HAHA.

Endless Sleepless Nights

I just got out of the shower, blow-dried my hair, and I still can't sleep.
I'm worrying too much over little stuff. This is bad.
Anyways.. I've been addicted to two song *"Cannonball-Damien Rice"* and *"Something About You-Jamelia"*. Download them =)

Stones taught me to fly
Love taught me to cry
Life taught me to die
So it's not hard to fall
When you float like a cannonball (8)

Good Night
Yus_ra

Eid Mubarak :)

First of all, I would like to wish you all a happy Eid =)
I've had a wonderful Eid-Dinner in Maroush with Freddy, Iris and 5alti (their mum). I must admit that spending my time with my friend's family made me feel much better. It's my 9th Eid away from home, family and friends. So its not easy at all.
I'm glad I got to know you Iris. It really feels like i've known you min zimaaan.. Thank you so much for always being there for me.

God, Please make Fred stop teasing SuperNitfah, or else...She's going to lose her mind :)

3eedkum embarak w kil 3am wnto b5air =)
GoozBye!

Typical "Mama" Drama...

I guess drama follows me around wherever I go, even when I'm here in London. I think mama has no point in complaining about how expensive my phone bills were when I was in Bahrain this summer. I mean, its been two months ever since I came back to London and she's still complaining about the same thing. Whats your point, ma?

Caution: Discrimination Kills.

I wish that one day, a parent can actually admit this.

I can't wait to graduate and have a life of my own.
Anyway I miss you, ma.

Peace

Ramadan's Khaleeji Episodes

Oh yeah, one more thing..

To all those who study, work overseas, and people who are away from home, click here to download all ramadan's 5aleeji episodes.


Enjoy watching them and leave a comment if you have a problem accessing the forum.

My pillow's calling me. I g2g!

Grumpy, Old Neighbour!

I hate to admit that I have the Stupidest, most ANNOYING, self-centered, old neighbour. That is the freakin' 3ayooz in Flat 5 next door. I am living alone, and rarely have friends coming over, and yet, she accuses me of being too noisy. WTF?

I remember one time, she came knocking on my door. We had this conversation...

Flat 5: "Haylow yungg laidy, Yoooou aar too noysee/noisy!!" with an angry face [Baaal! bil3adaal 3alay 3aad!]
Yusra, with my mouth wide open: "Me? I'm surfing the net, not playing any music or anything. Where would the noise come from?"
Flat 5: "All the noise is coming from your batroom! (bathroom, she meant)"
Yusra: "I'm sorry but I think you're mistaken, I'm alone here i swear. And I didn't use the bathroom since two hours or so. The noise is definitely not from my flat."
Flat 5: "Ooh, its probably da ba'asterds from flat 11..."

She walked away without even apologizing or anything. Huh! As if I care!

I hate it when people blame me, without me doing anything. *angry*

Anyway, my friend Loolies came over yesterday, and for some reason, we needed foil. So Loolies knocked on flat 5's door and wanted to ask if she could have a little piece of foil. The lady asked who it was, Loolies was like 'its Flat 6'.

Lady opens the door, so loolies told her that she is my friend. Right the second she wanted to tell the neighbour that we need foil, the lady gave her THAT look, and slammed the door in Loolie's face *tears* How embarrassing? LOL! As if i'm her enemy!! fashelatniiii!!

I'm so sorry loolies :( m3laich fel 3ayooza.. We'll throw a party the next time you come over. HAHA! Eid in advance. I'll make sure Metallica performs in my place WAHAHA! *evil face*

Listen bitch! I will entertain myself the way I want. I will cook, watch Ramadan's episodes, listen to music, dance and rock my world the way I want to.

Hard Luck.

Quote of the day: Gimme 5, flat five *Muwahahaha*!!!!!!!!

I know I might sound bitchy to you guys, but seriously, she's driving me crazy. You find her screaming her ass off and throwing god knows what on the wall that's next to my bathroom, when i wash my face everyday. How will I put up with her craziness...? :(

Peace,
Yuuunnnggg Laiiiideeee HAHAHA

My First Post!

Welcoming myself and others to the world of blogging.
Love,
Yusra